Have you ever felt so crushed, that the only refuge you'd get is to tilt your head up, close your eyes, breathe and let those tears fall without direction?

I told myself I would be writing something ecstatic for next post but here I am, getting the worst of both worlds, stretched beyond compare. How odd it is, that my emotions have been roughly tied too tight, it can no longer be suppressed.

I've been strong for the past few weeks because of reasons I cannot compel myself to believe in this very moment. Maybe, just maybe... I am not what some people think. I cannot be what they want me to be. I am not perfect. I am flawed in a million ways. I am me. and I have feelings too.

I am indubitably hoping that I manage to keep standing until everything is over, and at least take detours away from the inevitable road of pitfalls and frozen thorns.

I am keeping in my heart a surreal chimera of rainbows and sunsets...until then. |