It is a fine afternoon today. Groceries are jam packed with people preparing for New Year's Eve, the streets are loaded with vehicles, our house is a big mess. Indeed, today is the last of 2009, the last of December as well. It's pretty amazing how time flies really fast. It seems so yesterday when I wore that red dress, gazed at the breathtaking sight of fireworks, and welcomed 2009 with hopes and dreams. Ah, but that's how life is.

Looking back on how my year has been, I can say that it's the best and the worst. I've shed too many tears, given off the most hysterical laugh and the sweetest smile. I've lost battles but learned how to rise on my knees, stand above and lose ground. I've made people smile, touch their hearts, and be one with them. I've made people cry, hurt badly, and grow apart from them. These things, no matter how joyous or heartbreaking, are pieces of the puzzle of my life that make up who I am now. I've grown physically (LOL), mentally and emotionally, learned a lot about myself and about how life can be cruel and fantastic at the same time. Yes, I may have regrets, could have been's and what if's but I know everything that happens has a reason, and a purpose. Maybe it's the reason why I'm still here in one piece.

God has really been so good to me this year 'cause He never failed to be the best friend I just needed anytime, anywhere. He has given me wonderful people through out the year who never failed to make me smile, cry when I needed to, laugh whenever, and appreciate the simple things life has to offer. I am grateful because I never run out of happiness really, despite problems and trials. THAT is one of the greatest things I am thankful for.

To those whom I've hurt in any way, I sincerely apologize. People make mistakes, and being a cause of someone's pain is one of my biggest mistakes. I'm sorry. To those who were there through thick and thin... in times I'm at my weakest and lowest, in times I need a helping hand or a helping 'self', in times I'm being naive and unpredictable; To those who accept me for who I am; To those who make me laugh even when I don't want to smile; To those who make me feel comforted, secured and loved... THANK YOU SO MUCH AND I, LOVE YOU. Bea is not "BEA" without you. I think I know that you know yourselves :]

I know that 2010 will be a great year and I'm looking forward to opportunities and experiences that will bring out the best in you and me. So long and goodbye, 2009. I won't forget you. Hello 2010, I can't wait :]